when you wake up in a brand new bed
does your arm
across too? i miss the smells of you coming home
like the sound of church bells
from under my tombstone.
never even seen that movie,
can you believe it?
you’re an agnostic lover and know it,
so unsure of assurances.
got no insurance
got no life savings
when did I get saved
got no plans
you told me god would laugh in my face.
i am a shy guy, standing in the corner when we got to heaven
waiting for seraphim to approach me first
waiting for saints to make small talk.
i broke my bed with a pick axe
sawed off the legs and bleached my sheets
cleaned my soul holy
and used my money to buy my friends beer.
called my mom from a payphone
to tell her things are still fine
i didn’t tell her
how much better it’s all getting.